Suicide

Las thu, I was chatting abt tis topic v my fren in library... I tell my fren tat I felt veli stress n I would jump down if I completely crazy...
I found tat I dont hv any reason 4 me 2 live in tis sad world...
Bt, I dun hv the courage 2 do so...
Bcoz I scare height n pain...
I reli think tat I nid 2 consult psychologist sooner...
coz I think I oso gt other problem such as slightly depression n autism...
Once I cant do a thg, I would hv tis tot again...
I gt think of other method such as stab myself, eat medicine n others...
Jz I din do it becoz I reli scare...
I dun wan 2 leave n hurt my grandma who veli love me...
n my 2 cute dogs...

Yesterday, tis fren tell me tat 1 of his secondary school fren commit suicide 2 days ago...
Tis news reli shock me coz he jump down frm high place...
Which is same v wat I say on above...
The problem tat he commit suicide is he cant stand the pressure...
My fren tell me tat he is a clever student...
Reli feel pity 4 him...
Although I dun knw tis guy, bt I wish he can rest in peace...
I hop tat I wil nt follow wat tis guy did...
Jz nw I found tat tis news in Sin Chew newspaper...
If any1 wan 2 knw more abt tis case, go n read tis newspaper la...

Since I cum UTAR, I already change to another person...
I had becum unhapi, dun like 2 talk o join ppl, veli like 2 hide myself...
The most time I spend is stay in library...
Mostly if I dun hv anythg 2 do, I wil sty til 9pm on weekdays n 5pm on weekend...
Bt I nt study, instead slipping, ply fb n read newspaper onli...
I felt reli comfortable n relax in here, the space is big n I can walk here n thr...
I cant blame my parents completely bcoz is me who chose 2 cum here...
Each time I tell tat I cant cope it n I wan 2 quit...
He jz scold me...
The reason is tat he wan the degree cert...
If u so wan the degree cert, y dun u jz go get it urself...
U tot tis course reli easy ah...
Nw I in yr 2 already, bt I stil dun knw wat I learn in foundation n yr 1...

2day, I had screw up my ICF presentation...
n I felt sad n sry 2 my groupmate...
I jz knw tat I m a troublemaker...
owaz make a lot of  problem 2 my fren...
Another reason tat I feel sad is...
Tis week cant go bck humtown bcoz gt 2 more asignmnt nid 2 rush...
I dun knw hw 2 do at all...
Nt tat I din try at all...
Bt jz I reli cant do nt matter hw hard i try...
I m destined 2 b a useless ppl...

Myself

Hi, my name is Tee Chee Ming! I m 19 years old and always will be!^^
I study computer engineering in UTAR at Kampar!
I am a normal look boy with long hair!
Who say boy cant have long hair?
But the consequences are being laugh and insult by most people!
They always called me pondan, agua and many more!
But, I don't care what they say!
Hair is mine de, I want to have how long jiu how long, no need you all bother!
I very angry when my parents forced me to cut my hair!
But I still insist to have long hair!
Maybe this got relate with my personality!
I admit that i am quite feminine!
Even though I have short hair, I still being say very feminine!
Don't know why?
My future career is to become a hairstylist!
I also interest in nail design and make-up!
Before de me will feel like want to be a DJ or host because can more easily approach to my idols!
But i am not good at speaking, so I gave up this thought long time ago le!
Although I always say that I am a future hairstylist, but many people say that my hair look very ugly!
I also want to style my hair, but the problem is my parents!
They wont allow me to try weird hair!
If can, I already done le!

The reason that i open on 13 August 2010 is...
My idol Jolin had released her latest album"蔡依林Myself2010概念专辑"!
Woo~<3
This also match with my "Myself" title!^^
Wait for 1 year and 4 month plus!
But, I do not preorder her album!
Feel so sad!T.T
I won't download her album illegally because I want to support her!
I will buy her original album!
Many people laugh me stupid because waste money on a single piece of CD!
But I don't care what they say!
Back to this album, it consists of 10 songs and 5 interludes!
Out of 10 songs, got 8 fast songs which fulfill my taste!
I know many people don't like her,
but the reason that I like her not because of her beauty or body,
is the great effort and surprise each time she show!
If you all can't do what she can do, then just shut your mouth up!
I had listen "Honey Trap" and I quite like the part she raps!
Her mv also very nice with those vogueing dance!
If anyone like her, please support her original album!